Monday, February 6, 2012

Blacksheep

I'm tired of being the blacksheep of the family. Little sister had nephew's birthday on Saturday. No invite. Brother told me that they were all going to see Dad. I wasn't feeling good so I didn't ask to go with them. Good thing cause he lied to me. They went to my sister's house for nephew's birthday party. Never said a word to me. It hurts so much that we weren't included. It's not fair. I've tried so much to get it all settled with sister but she won't meet me half way even. You can't settle something just from one side. I'm going to take the kids to her house tomorrow evening to drop off a birthday card for nephew with $10 in it. What's really bad is I'm sick and on two different antibiotics and my physical and emotional state is not good to start with. I won't be going to the door because of it. Don't need any little babies catching this from me. I just want to have my sister back. How does that make me out to be the monster that I must be in her mind for her to not want me to be her sister back? What's really bad is that my Mom and them won't even try to help get us all healed. I mean they lied to me about Saturday. I would rather have not known and found out the way I did on Facebook alone. My sisters Mother in Law posted pictures of my Mom holding the new baby. I have only gotten to see him in pictures. My heart is broken. I've got to realize that she doesn't want me and that I don't matter to the rest of the family either in the long run. At least that's the way it feels right now.

4 comments:

  1. oh Karen, that sucks! I'm so sorry :(

    I know it's not what you want, but sometimes you have to walk away and let them come to things on their own. it's horrible, but you are right - you can't fix things if you're only working from one side :( ((HUGS))

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  2. That was wrong not to tell you. Did they think you wouldn't find out? Karen I hope you know that black sheep are beautiful. They are different from their fellow sheep and most of them stand out because they have something to offer that the others don't - I know for you, that is a loving, forgiving, kind heart. Don't let their unfair treatment jade you - just keep being the wonderful person you are. And remember: "Friends are God's way of apologizing to to you for your family" (Dr. Wayne Dyer)

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  3. Thanks Diane. I finally told them they can talk about Kelly around me. She's the one with the problem and I'm betting she's told everybody not to talk about me to her and no telling me anything about her. She'll get over herself some day. The anniversary of our big "fight" was on April 1st. I'm over it and just waiting on her. Guess she'll never get over it.

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  4. I guess they didn't think so Amy. Her mother-in-law posted pictures on Facebook and I saw them there since I'm friends with her. Her mother-in-law posted that she wasn't posting anymore for lent except for game stuff. I have a feeling my sister told her not to post any pictures of get togethers that my Mom and them are at. Love that quote you closed with Amy. I've got to remember I'm allowed to have great friends.........to bad they're not by where I live though. LOL.

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